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Hi Ren by Ren Song lyrics

I’ve been taking some time to be distant
I’ve been stepping back from everything and everyone.

I’ve been taking some time to be still
I’ve been finding moments of calm and peace.

I’ve been taking some time to be by myself since my therapist told me I’m ill
I’ve been spending time alone because my therapist said I have a mental illness.

I’ve been making some progress lately, and I’ve learnt some new coping skills
I’ve been improving recently and have picked up new ways to handle my issues.

So I haven’t really needed you much man
I haven’t relied on you as much recently.

I think we need to just step back and chill
I believe it’s best if we both take a break and relax.

Ren, you sound more insane than I do
You’re sounding crazier than I am.

You think that those doctors are really there to guide you?
Do you really believe the doctors are helping you?

Been through this a million times
I’ve gone through similar situations many times before.

Your civilian mind is so perfect at always being lied to
Your everyday thinking is too easily deceived.

Okay, take another pill boy
Fine, keep taking your medication.

Drown yourself in the sound of white noise
Just numb yourself with distractions.

Follow this 10 step program, rejoice!
Follow this program and be happy.

All your problems will be gone! Fucking dumb boy
All your issues will disappear! You’re so naïve.

Nah mate, this time it’s different man trust me
No, this time is different, trust me.

I feel like things might be falling in place
I feel like things are starting to make sense.

And my music’s been kinda doing bits too
And my music has been doing well too.

Like I actually might do something great
I might actually achieve something significant.

And when I’m gone maybe I’ll be remembered
Maybe after I’m gone, people will remember me.

For doing something special with myself
For making a unique contribution.

That’s why I don’t think that we should talk man
That’s why I think we should stop communicating.

Cause when you’re with me it never seems to help
Because being with you hasn’t been beneficial.

You think that you can amputate me?
Do you think you can just get rid of me?

I am you, you are me, you are I, I am we
We are the same, intertwined.

We are one, split in two that makes one so you see
We are one entity split into two parts, making us one.

You got to kill you if you wanna kill me.
To get rid of me, you’d have to get rid of yourself.

I’m not left over dinner, I’m not scraps on the side, oh your music is thriving?
I’m not just some leftover, I’m important, even if your music is doing well.

Delusional guy! Where’s your top ten hit? Where’s your interview with Oprah?
You’re deluded! Where’s your big success and fame?

Where are your grammes Ren?
Where are your Grammys?

Nowhere!
You don’t have them.

Yeah but, my music’s not commercial like that
My music isn’t made for mainstream success.

I never chased numbers, statistics or stats
I don’t care about charts or numbers.

I never write hooks for the radio, they never even play me so why would I concern myself with that?
I don’t write catchy songs for radio play, so why bother?

But my music is really connecting,
But my music resonates with people.

And the people who find it respect it,
Those who do listen, respect it.

And for me that’s enough ‘cause this life’s been tough so it gives me a purpose I can rest in
That’s enough for me because it gives me purpose in a tough life.

Man you sound so pretentious!
You sound so self-important!

Ren your music is so self centred,
Your music is so focused on yourself.

No one wants to hear another song about how much you hate yourself… trust me
People don’t want to hear more songs about self-loathing.

You should be so lucky having me inside you to guide you, remind you to manage expectations,
You should be grateful for me guiding you and helping you manage your expectations.

Provide you perspective, that thing you neglected, I get it
I offer perspective you’ve ignored.

You wanna be a big deal… Next Jimi Hendrix? Forget it
You want to be a big star, like Jimi Hendrix? Forget it.

Man it’s not like that
It’s not like that.

Man it’s just like that I’m inside you you twat
It is like that because I’m part of you.

Nah it’s not man you’re wrong, when I write I belong
No, you’re wrong. I feel I belong when I write.

Let me break the fourth wall by acknowledging this song
Let me address the fact that this song is breaking the fourth wall.

Ren sits down,
Ren is sitting down,

Has a stroke of genius,
And having a moment of brilliance,

He wants to write a song that was not done previous
He wants to create something unique.

A battle with his subconscious… Eminem did it
It’s a confrontation with his inner self, similar to what Eminem did.

Played on guitar
And it’s performed with a guitar.

Plan B did it
Plan B did something similar.

Man you’re not original you criminal, rip off artist, the pinnacle of your success is stealing other people’s material
You’re not original, you’re just copying others. Your success is based on theft.

Ren mate we’ve heard it all before
We’ve heard it all before.

Ohh “she sells sea shells on the sea shore”
It’s just clichés and common phrases.

Fuck you I don’t need you, I don’t need to hear this,
I don’t need to listen to you anymore.

cause I’m fine by myself, I’m a genius!
I’m okay on my own. I’m a genius!

and I will be great, and I will make waves, and I’ll shake up the whole world beneath us
I will achieve greatness and make an impact.

That’s right speak your truth, your fucking god complex leaks out of you
Yes, speak your truth. Your arrogance is obvious.

It’s refreshing to actually hear you say it!
It’s good to hear you admit it.

Instead of downplay it…
Rather than pretending it’s not true…

“Oh the music is all about the creative process and if people can find something to relate to within that that’s just a bonus”
Instead of claiming your music is just about creativity and finding meaning is a bonus.

Fuck you I’ma fucking kill you Ren
I’m going to defeat you, Ren.

Well fucking kill me then
Then go ahead and try.

let’s fucking have you Ren
Let’s have it out, Ren.

I’ma do it, watch me prove it, who are you to doubt my music?
I’m going to prove myself. Who are you to doubt my music?

‘Cause I call the shots I choose if you die
I’m in control. I decide who survives.

Yeah I call the shots and so I who choose who survives
I make the decisions about who lives and who dies.

I’ll tie you up in knots then I’ll lock you inside
I’ll trap you and keep you contained.

News flash…
Here’s the revelation…

I was created at the dawn of creation,
I’ve existed since the beginning of time.

I am temptation
I represent temptation.

I am the snake in Eden,
I’m like the serpent in the Garden of Eden.

I am the reason for treason
I’m the cause of betrayal.

Beheading all Kings,
I bring down rulers.

I am sin with no rhyme or reason,
I am sin, without logic or purpose.

Sun of the morning, Lucifer,
I am Lucifer, the Morning Star.

Antichrist, father of lies,
I am the Antichrist, the father of lies.

Mestophilies,
Mefistofeles (a demon in folklore),

Truth in a blender,
Truth mixed with deceit.

Deceitful pretender,
A deceitful pretender.

The Banished avenger,
The exiled avenger.

The righteous surrender
The justified surrender.

When standing in-front of my solar eclipse,
When facing my darkness.

My name it is stitched to your lips so see
My name is always on your mind, inseparable from you.

I won’t bow to the will of a mortal, feeble and normal
I won’t submit to the demands of a weak and ordinary person.

You wanna kill me? I’m eternal, immortal
You want to defeat me? I’m eternal and unending.

I live in every decision that catalyzed chaos
I exist in every choice that caused chaos.

That causes division
That creates conflict and separation.

I live inside death, the beginning of ends
I exist in death and the start of conclusions.

I am you, you are me, I am you Ren
We are the same. I am you, and you are me.

Hi Ren… I’ve been taking some time to be distant,
Hello Ren… I’ve been stepping away for a while,

I’ve been taking some time to be still
I’ve been finding peace and calm.

I’ve been taking some time to be by myself and I’ve spent half my life ill
I’ve been alone and dealing with illness for much of my life.

But just as sure as the tide start turning
But just like the changing tide,

Just as sure as the night has dawn
Just like night turns to day,

Just as sure as rain fall soon runs dry when you stand in the eye of the storm
Just as rain eventually stops when you’re in the calm center of a storm,

I was made to be tested and twisted
I was created to face challenges and be changed by them.

I was made to be broken and beat
I was made to endure suffering and hardship.

I was made by his hand, it’s all part of the plan that I stand on my own two feet
I was made by a higher power, and it’s all part of the plan for me to be self-reliant.

And you know me my will is eternal
You know my determination is endless.

And you know me you’ve met me before
And you’re familiar with me; you’ve encountered me before.

Face to with a beast I will rise from the east and I’ll settle on the ocean floor
Confronting challenges, I will rise and find my place of peace.

And I go by many names also
I am known by many names.

Some people know me as hope
Some know me as hope.

Some people know me as the voice that you hear when you loosen the noose on the rope
Some know me as the voice of reassurance when you let go of despair.

And you know how I know how I know that I’ll prosper?
And I know I will succeed because…

Because I stand here beside you today
Because I am here with you right now.

I have stood in the flames that cremated my brain
I have endured intense suffering that tested my mind.

And I didn’t once flinch or shake
And I didn’t falter or hesitate.

So cower at the man I’ve become
So be in awe of the person I have become.

When I sing from the top of my lungs
When I express myself passionately and boldly,

That I won’t retire I’ll stand in your fire inspire the meek to be strong
I won’t give up. I’ll endure challenges and inspire others to be strong.

And when I am gone I will rise
When I’m gone, my influence will continue.

In the music that I left behind
In the music I created.

Ferocious persistent, immortal like you
Relentless and eternal, like you.

We’re a coin with two different sides
We are two aspects of the same whole.

When I was 17 years old I shouted out into an empty room, into a blank canvas, that I would defeat the forces of evil,
At 17, I declared that I would overcome evil.

and for the next 10 years of my life I suffered the consequences…
For the next decade, I faced the repercussions.

With illness, autoimmunity and psychosis
With health issues, autoimmune conditions, and mental struggles.

As I got older I realised that there were no real winners or no real losers in physiological warfare
As I grew older, I understood that in personal battles, there are no true victors or vanquished.

But there were victims and there were students
There are only those who suffer and those who learn.

It wasn’t David versus Goliath, it was a pendulum eternally swaying between the dark and the light,
It wasn’t a simple battle; it was a constant swing between darkness and light.

and the brighter the light shone, the darker the shadow it cast
The stronger the light, the deeper the shadow.

It was never a battle for me to win, it was an eternal dance,
It was not a fight to win, but an endless dance.

and like a dance, the more rigid I became the harder it got
And as with dancing, being rigid made it harder.

The more I cursed my clumsy footsteps the more I suffered
The more I cursed my mistakes, the more I suffered.

And so I got older and I learned to relax, and I learned to soften, and that dance got easier
I grew older, learned to relax and adapt, making the dance of life easier.

It is this eternal waltz that separates human beings from angels, from demons, from gods
This eternal dance distinguishes humans from angels, demons, and gods.

And I must not forget, we must not forget, that we are human beings.
We must remember that we are human.